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Today I sat pool side, tugged by the irresistible blue. The umbrella’s shade shifted with an ever-eastward run and I shifted with it. I resisted the water and read instead, wondering at the water’s temperature, the corps of young life guards, the young mothers pregnant, carrying babies, toddlers in tow, then equally intrigued by the older mothers, the grandmothers even, ever-present.

In Alexei Savrasov’s Evening Migration of Birds (1874), birds flee towards the fading light like apostrophes in flight. Denise Levertov has expressed her impatience with light. Meike Nixdorf photographs the trees, the trails at Teide National Park, Spain, and yet I see none of that in her pictures. I see light. Light yokes me: I am as much its student as its slave. Born and raised in the Mojave Desert, I understand light and sun intimately, as has my ancestry four generations deep.

Matisse once said, “Black is the color of light,” which, after a blue (read: black) period myself, I completely understand. In our darkest times we see ourselves most clearly. I have a friend who avoids mirrors. I understand that, too.

Ginsberg sought light in his “Psalm III.” Anne Carson suggests a light that pulls our eyelids back, a sit-up-and-listen light. Rembrandt worked at times with such darkness (see his Artemisia Receiving Mausolus’ Ashes, 1634), that a touch of light on the brow becomes epiphanal.

What is it about light that intrigues? That draws us closer, closes the space from retreat and asks for our hand a moment? Light signals beginnings, endings, goings, and just as equally announces peace, rebirth, spirit and holy.

In this month’s issue of Segullah, we begin at the pool’s edge with Melissa Young’s poem, “del mar.” A poem that reads like a luminous silvering and sparks in us a dawning knowledge of a summer spent.

Next, we venture to the sunrise of motherhood in the essay, “Of Carillon and Kangaroos,” by Emmelyn Thayer Freitas. With her young daughter at the San Diego Zoo (a place as beloved to myself as I think, to them) she flashes back to grad school days with light and longing. Along her path she helps us gain grace for our own lives lit with an ache of places past.

With Emily Dickinson, her sun rose a ribbon at a time. With Julianna Kelly Bratt’s essay, “Sanctissimi Corporis,” the ribbons shred in the sunset of motherhood’s agony, desperation, and desire. Bratt longs for the ocean, to be cremated, to end there not as the lip of earth ends, but as the blue begins and extends ever outward in widening gyres. “We don’t stop desiring because it hurts us. We learn how to grieve.” And with her insight we grieve alongside her loss of a great-aunt, her miscarriage, and her ancestors and their wombs.

What, after all this, remains? Might I suggest light. As Flannery O’Connor says, “Malebranche was right: we are not our own light.” It is the light, the words of others, as with this issue of Segullah, that help us see.

Terresa Wellborn
Associate Poetry Editor

Of Carillon and Kangaroos” by Emmelyn Thayer Freitas
Sanctissimi Corporis” by Julianna Kelly Bratt
del mar” by Melissa Young


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high_quality_viewSegullah Volume 10.0 Fall/Winter 2012


Featured Artist: Annie Henrie




Segullah Volume 9 Spring/Summer 2012

“Justice and Mercy”

Featured Artist: Amanda M. Smith




Segullah  Volume 8 .0 “Unfolding” Fall/Winter 2011

Featured artist: Cindy Ferguson




Segullah Volume 7.0 Spring/Summer 2011


Featured artists: Angela Bentley Fife, Chelsea Bentley James, Amanda Bentley James



Segullah Volume 6.0 Fifth Anniversary Issue

“Inside and Outside Marriage”

Featured artist: Maralise Petersen



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Segullah Volume 5.2 Winter 2009


Featured artist: Rebecca Wetzel Wagstaff



cover of SummerIssue illustrated by abstract life

Segullah Volume 5.1 Summer 2009

“Gifts of the Spirit”

Featured artist: Leslie Graff



cover of Fall Issue illustrated by woman holding baby near geraniums 

Segullah Volume 4.3 Fall/Winter 2008


Featured artist:  Lee Bennion


cover of Summer Issue illustrated by woman with parasol

Segullah Volume 4.2 Summer 2008

“Palette of Light”

Featured artist: Sharon Furner



cover of Spring Issue illustrated by two sisters with bird


Segullah Volume 4.1 Spring 2008

“Roots and Branches”

Featured artists: Cassandra Barney and Emily McPhie


cover of Winter Issue illustrated with ethereal sculpture installation

Segullah Volume 3.3 Fall/Winter 2007


Featured artist: Mandi Mauldin Felici




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Segullah Volume 3.2 Summer 2007


Featured artist: Jacqui Larsen



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Segullah Volume 3.1 Spring 2007


Featured artist: Jamie Wayman



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Segullah Volume 2.2 Fall 2006

“Cleave Unto Charity”

Featured artist: Rose Datoc Dall



Segullah Volume 2.1 Spring 2006

“Women Proclaiming the Gospel”





Segullah Volume 1.2 Fall 2005

“Corridors of Change”

Featured artist: Claire Ferguson



Segullah Volume 1.1 Spring 2005

“The Measure of Creation”

Cover art by Victoria Holt

Index of all Authors 2005-present